It’s Monday!

So that means a new week and new measurements! Y’all. I thought I was killing it this week. BUT I’m also sure that the amount of Halloween candy I’ve been consuming is offsetting those awesome efforts! I also haven’t been tracking my calorie intake. It’s just SO much work! (Insert whining voice)

The amount of exercise I’ve logged daily is exciting for me. I ran on Wednesday for “fun” and on Sunday with my oldest son. What an awesome feeling that was. Helping him finish his first 5K and I felt STRONG!

So for this next week. My plan is 80/20. Today was my 20 day. Queso for dinner. The rest of the week I need to be on. I have to track and must be mindful of what I eat. Today is a tough day on the calendar for me. So I’ve allowed myself to deal with it in the most familiar of ways. Food. But moving forward I will also start working on a healthier way to work through stressful times. Dealing with my “food issues”. Which is something I’m working on with one of my good friends.

On Friday I’ll check in with my progress.

XO

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Friday Feels

e33d2616d398798174a5f98806eda7a9--hello-friday-art-quotesSo it’s Friday ya’ll and I’ve made a new promise to myself.  To write in my blog more often.  So to begin with I’m going to post Fridays and use it to ramble about what happened this week and what I’d like to see for next week.

Monday began #last90days challenge for me.  I set out with the best of intentions.  Exercise Monday, Wednesday and Friday by getting up an hour early, drinking 120oz of water a day and give up one food category I KNOW I shouldn’t have.  I did a speed read of the book “Girl Wash Your Face” in preparation for the challenge.  I’ve been listening to Rachel Hollis’s podcasts and I feel like I’m learning some things.  I appreciate her realness and honesty.  One of the take aways I have from this is that setting personal boundaries is a necessary.  Prioritizing myself is something that I never do.  I need to start doing that.  I think that this step has to happen before I am successful in any other area.

5tothriveSo in the spirit of honesty, I haven’t worked out this week, I did break that promise to myself.  I blamed it on taking care of things for my parents, doctors appointments that didn’t go exactly as I wanted them to, someone being home while I workout – you name it, I can make an excuse for it.  Truth of the matter is, I just didn’t “make” the time for it, because I didn’t want to.  Feeling bad about myself overshadowed the need to workout. Which paired with me staying in bed as long as possible – then running around like a jerk to get the kids out the door for school and eating ALL the foods in the category I should be giving up (candy).  I did however drink half my weight in water each day this week, bonus to that is all the extra steps I logged while I went to the bathroom a zillion times!  I have also been writing my ten things I’m grateful for each day.  Some days they come easy, some days I’m reaching for anything.

My goal for the next week is to keep doing what I’m doing successfully, then add in those other 3 items – which all go together for me.  Making the time and putting myself on the schedule is going to be a big hurdle for me to get past, but it’ll happen.  It has to happen for me to find the success I’m looking for.  I also need to develop my “WHY”, because without that why – none of this will stick.

So until next week…wish me luck!

August Action Plan

That’s right…I’ve got an action plan! I have to keep trying until something sticks. Because I am sick and tired of feeling gross and being tired! I want to feel good and be active with my kids. They’re young and deserve an active mama. Because this girl has gotten LAZY this summer.

So I don’t know if this plan will be the one but I’m going to try it. The biggest change is me ditching the scale for the month. Im going to weigh & measure myself on August 1st, then put the scale away until September 1st. I’ve once again become dependent on that number on the scale. It then determines my attitude for the day. Which usually means my attitude will suck. (Insert eye roll here)

The rest is really just a recommitment to counting and burning calories and drinking water. I recalculated my BMR & AMR to help guide me on how much I should be eating and burning daily. Knowing I’d like to have a 1,000 calorie deficit daily to hopefully lose an average of 2lbs per week.

I’ve set up my journal for the month and I’m giving the goals a test run today.

Struggle Bus…

Yep. I’m riding that struggle bus to the bitter end. I’m at such a divide when it comes to this. On one hand I love ALL the food. All of it. But I’m not happy with how I look or feel. I’d love to find a good balance between these two worlds. But I haven’t found a way to do it. I eat really good but then I crave the junk. I can’t seem to wait it out or get past it.

I haven’t given up. But some days it feels that way. I want to eat healthier, feel better and look better. But I’m also not looking for an easy fix with a huge price tag on it. I’ve done that too and then boomeranged right back to where I am today.

I guess I just need to vent this all out and now I will reset and refresh again tomorrow morning. Beginning with a workout first thing in the morning. No more sleeping in this summer. That’s been part of my problem when it comes to how I’ve been feeling. Lazy start to the day, leads to bad food choices, no workouts and a depressed feeling throughout the day. Then it just repeats day after day. Nothing changes. That’s how it’s been for this last month since the kids got out of school.

As I’m sloooowly writing this post I’m prepping myself for the week. I setup my workout space again downstairs & committed to a contingent workout plan to bridge me to the next one I scheduled in my planner. I mapped out my week on paper for food/snacks. In 20 days I’m on vacation and I’d like to get back on track before that comes along.

I’ll check in each day after my workout for accountability and same for my food. Thanks for supporting me on my journey. I’ve got this because I have a plan!