I’m Still Here!

I know I haven’t been posting. I had a million and one excuses as to why I haven’t posted. But the real talk reason is I’ve been stuck in my head so much that I haven’t really wanted to post anything. But now…I need to rant. (Also, just to put it out there – I’m not looking for any “miracle diets”. I just want to complain. I know what I need to do. My mind and probably my thyroid have other plans,)

I’ve been doing the second round of Beachbody’s Liift4 and I’m definitely getting stronger. I actually just finished today! My results aren’t what I dreamed them to be. I, like everyone else, expect immediate results and expect them to be dramatic. Obviously neither of those things happened. This time around I did take a before and after picture. I also took measurements and kept track of my weights. The freaking measurements didn’t change! WTF

I’m annoyed. I know my food is less than on point. But I also know it hasn’t been horrible. I’ve never been successful at restricting my diet. But I have been choosing my calories more thoughtfully. I hoped that my exercise and better food choices would have made a difference. Agh!

So my next move? Learn to stop judging myself. Seriously. Because I’ve been hypercritical of myself. When I don’t look in the mirror I’m happy with what I see. Happy with what my minds wye pictures. But as soon as I catch my reflection I’m brought back to all the negativity. How do you change that? How do you look in the mirror and appreciate what you see? I hate having all these insecurities. I hide them as best as I can but the mean girl in my head is LOUD!

I wish I had the ability to have a trainer, to kick my ass and push the extra discipline I need. It’s just not in the cards for me right now. So I need to keep trying my best at home and with one class a week at the gym.

Here goes nothing. On to another program this week. I haven’t decided which one….. I need to do some quick research so I can start in the morning.

Here are my before and after photos before I go. I figure I took them, so I might as well share them.

Pray for a miracle this time around for your girl! Haha

Goodbye 2018…Hello 2019

As December came to a close I finished up my first round of Liift4 with my workout buddy Shannon. I never took before pictures but I did weigh and measure myself. However…I saw no difference or I should say no loss. I pretty much maintained my weight during the nine weeks (I know, it should be eight but we did week 5 twice). So I guess I should be happy with that considering the holidays. We finished the Friday before Christmas with the plan of starting Round 2 on Christmas Eve. I started the program as planned adding Jillian Michaels Killer Cardio on my Liift4 days. Turned out that my workout pal care down with something and I offered to do week one again so we could be in the same place in the program.

This time I took before pictures and measurements. Each Monday I will do the same. I also took some time to make my 2019 Goals rather than resolutions.

They seem simple enough but I struggle with 6/7. I’m not stuck on the number on the scale as I’m stuck on feeling comfortable in my body and my clothes. I’m heading into my 40th birthday and I already know I’m feeling better than I was at my 30th. But….I want to continue to feel better and look better because I’ve been carrying this weight around for too damn long!

I also committed to doing these sheets again to set shorter term goals for myself. These will help me stay accountable.

So this morning I’m kicking off another 8 weeks with Liift4 matched with cardio. I’m pumped and feeling hopeful that this time I’ll see results. Here’s the schedule I made for myself to bring me through this round.

Wishing everyone a very Happy 2019, May it be all you hope for!

XOXO

It’s Monday!

So that means a new week and new measurements! Y’all. I thought I was killing it this week. BUT I’m also sure that the amount of Halloween candy I’ve been consuming is offsetting those awesome efforts! I also haven’t been tracking my calorie intake. It’s just SO much work! (Insert whining voice)

The amount of exercise I’ve logged daily is exciting for me. I ran on Wednesday for “fun” and on Sunday with my oldest son. What an awesome feeling that was. Helping him finish his first 5K and I felt STRONG!

So for this next week. My plan is 80/20. Today was my 20 day. Queso for dinner. The rest of the week I need to be on. I have to track and must be mindful of what I eat. Today is a tough day on the calendar for me. So I’ve allowed myself to deal with it in the most familiar of ways. Food. But moving forward I will also start working on a healthier way to work through stressful times. Dealing with my “food issues”. Which is something I’m working on with one of my good friends.

On Friday I’ll check in with my progress.

XO

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Measurement Monday

2018_10_29-13-46-51-1.jpgI began measuring myself again on Monday mornings when I started Rachel Hollis’ #last90days challenge. It was just another reminder that I needed to get moving again because these measurements aren’t going to change without me making that happen.

I started off during that first week on a Wednesday. I did a Jillian Michaels DVD for a few days. The second week I switched over to riding my stationary bike daily. Then my friend Shannon got me to commit with her to an eight week program (Liift4) of weights. With that commitment came a 5am wake up at least four days a week. If you know me, then you know I’m not a morning person. But it fell in line with the #last90days challenge of getting up an hour earlier every day. It’s been kind of nice actually.

Although I haven’t seen much of a shift in my measurements yet, I’m feeling confident that I will once I finish the eight week program. Along with Liift4 I’ve been cycling daily and on my recovery days I’ve done some restorative yoga. The yoga has been helping me from getting stiff after lifting weights.

It’s nice to switch it up and since fitting the gym into my schedule doesn’t seem to be working – doing it at home at zero dark thirty is what it will have to be. Being self employed, the time I get the majority of my work done is when the kiddos are in school. So to also try and for gym time in there isn’t practical (even though I’d love to take some more of those trampoline classes).  Maybe someday when I can hire some employees!

Looking forward to what happens with next weeks measurements!

XO

Friday Feels

 

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Another week has gone by, my weight crept up again.  But I also started a new workout program with a friend.  With an agreement of a 5am wakeup at least four days a week.  We did it!  We made it through week one and it was challenging.  I felt like I got a quality workout on those four days.  I did yoga on my designated recovery days.  Which helped with how tight my muscles were feeling.  The more active I am the less I want to eat so I’m trying to move as much as possible.img_2199

My plan for this week is to just continue my buddy workouts four days a week.  Also continuing my daily cycling for at least 30 minutes.  Getting up at 5am has actually been a nice change to the school week.  It allows me to get in my workout without feeling rushed or guilty.  The added bonus is I can get ready for my day with that same no stress vibe.  If only I could keep that vibe for the rest of the day….I’m working on it.  I’m hopeful to see a change in those measurements at minimum.  I promised myself and my friend Shannon that I wouldn’t quit.  We’re developing strong habits to carry forward and continue to do great things.  Being strong and fit is always WAY better than being skinny.

Here’s to a great week!  Enjoy all the Halloween festivities this week….I know it’s my favorite time of year! XO

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