I’m Still Here!

I know I haven’t been posting. I had a million and one excuses as to why I haven’t posted. But the real talk reason is I’ve been stuck in my head so much that I haven’t really wanted to post anything. But now…I need to rant. (Also, just to put it out there – I’m not looking for any “miracle diets”. I just want to complain. I know what I need to do. My mind and probably my thyroid have other plans,)

I’ve been doing the second round of Beachbody’s Liift4 and I’m definitely getting stronger. I actually just finished today! My results aren’t what I dreamed them to be. I, like everyone else, expect immediate results and expect them to be dramatic. Obviously neither of those things happened. This time around I did take a before and after picture. I also took measurements and kept track of my weights. The freaking measurements didn’t change! WTF

I’m annoyed. I know my food is less than on point. But I also know it hasn’t been horrible. I’ve never been successful at restricting my diet. But I have been choosing my calories more thoughtfully. I hoped that my exercise and better food choices would have made a difference. Agh!

So my next move? Learn to stop judging myself. Seriously. Because I’ve been hypercritical of myself. When I don’t look in the mirror I’m happy with what I see. Happy with what my minds wye pictures. But as soon as I catch my reflection I’m brought back to all the negativity. How do you change that? How do you look in the mirror and appreciate what you see? I hate having all these insecurities. I hide them as best as I can but the mean girl in my head is LOUD!

I wish I had the ability to have a trainer, to kick my ass and push the extra discipline I need. It’s just not in the cards for me right now. So I need to keep trying my best at home and with one class a week at the gym.

Here goes nothing. On to another program this week. I haven’t decided which one….. I need to do some quick research so I can start in the morning.

Here are my before and after photos before I go. I figure I took them, so I might as well share them.

Pray for a miracle this time around for your girl! Haha

What’s your SUPERPOWER?

Get to know your strengths-they can help you lose!

When we discussed this in the meeting room, it was the week I was in a major funk.  It was the day I almost quit.  I didn’t pick much up that day in the meeting room because I was too deep inside my own head to hear it.  But now that I’ve gone back to my weekly in a much better frame of mind, I’ve put some thought into it.

According to Weight Watchers Weekly, it’s the traits – kindness, resilience, generosity, loyalty that make you who you are.  I know, I know you didn’t need a WW Weekly to tell you that, but if you’re like me, you needed the reminder.  Sometimes all we see are out perceived weaknesses or limitations or we let the words that describe our physical selves define us.  But we are all more than curly hair or straight teeth. 

How this helps is by recognizing our personal strengths and tapping into them it may increase happiness and reduce depression.  In one study, people who identified their unique attribute and used it in a new way every day found longer lasting happiness than those who simply journal about happy memories.  Science has also shown that happier people make healthier choices. 

An activity in the WW Weekly was USE YOUR SUPERPOWER!! Here’s the outline:

DEFINE – Think about your strong points and what comes naturally to you and write down a strength you’d like to use this week. 

DESCRIBE – Describe how you’ll use that strength in a new way.

DEBRIEF – Afterward write in detail what you did and when and where you used it.  Note how you felt and what you took away from the exercise.

I determined that my “superpower” is determination.  I’ve been on this particular journey for a while and haven’t given up.  I am determined to succeed no matter how long it takes.  I used that determination to fuel last weeks weight loss and I will continue to use it going forward.  I won’t give up on this!!