Self Care, Putting yourself first….

The struggle for me is real on this one.  It feels like there’s never enough time for the things I want to do.  Now before I continue, let me just say that I know that being a mom is a full time, all the time job.  My family means the world to me.  BUT sometimes this mom and wife needs a break.  I have been a stay at home mom now for two years and I’ve spent most of these two years trying to figure out “what am I going to do?”  I’ve realized that what I need to do is find something for me!  I had been taking metaphysical classes (that’s what we’ll call them…) from October 2014 thru June 2016, these were weekly classes and they were something very special to me.  I created great connections with these people and they continue today.  However now these classes have gone to a once a month meeting, which just isn’t the same.  I need to find something to replace this.  Maybe it’s teaching the classes myself, maybe it’s honing some of the skills I’ve learned over the past two years, maybe it’s something all new or it’s a little bit of all of that!
I’ve also put my health on the back burner again.  I was working so hard on implementing a workout regime and eating healthier.  It was too much all at once.  I set myself up to fail and fail I did.  As I wrote in my last blog post, the kids are at school and I essentially have Monday thru Friday from 10-2 to do things-whether it’s office work for my husbands business or house management or just me time.  I’m a schedule maker, a list maker – it’s how I thrive.  So I’m working on finding a balance with all of these things instead of trying to do things at once.  I have been meal planning and doing my grocery shopping for just what’s on the meal plan (every Monday!).  I need to refine my shopping skills (no junk!) and really need to add back in some exercise.  Baby steps…it’ll happen.
So as one of the first things I’ve decided to do for myself in the “New Year” that began on Tuesday, is posting every Friday on my blog.  Honestly you can probably expect most posts to be just like this one.  A rambling mess of what’s happening right now in my crowded head.  If that’s good with you then I look forward to seeing you next week!
xoxo
Jenny
Until next Friday….remember…

Let Down

Yup. This morning was a let down. I really expected to see some sort of a loss. Any kind of loss. But I do recognize where I could make changes for this week. 
1. Carbs. After doing my cleanse I learned that I am carb intolerant. Yet I continue to keep breads in my diet. My bloating was far less when I didn’t eat any breads,pastas and crackers. 
2. Dairy. I also learned dairy is a trigger for me. I’ve eaten quite a bit of those spreadable cheeses this past week. 
3. Exercise. I’ve done some walking, even some jogging. But 2 good days doesn’t cover a whole week. I set a 10k step goal for myself and only met it 3 out of 7 days. 
This week I’ll make some changes and see where it takes me. 
1. Omitting the foods I mentioned above. 
2. Making sure I hit those step goals each day. 
3. Fighting the negative talk in my head is always a huge challenge. 
4. Remembering to put myself first. I am more than a stay at home mom. 
I set some self empowerment exercises in motion on the dark moon. I need to continue to nurture those petitions. 
Until next week…wish me luck. 
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True Life…True Story

I posted this on my Instagram this morning and it’s been stuck in my head ever since. It’s so true. You absolutely have to love yourself before you can do anything else. 
I am literally sitting under a tree on the side of a path writing this because I was so inspired while I was walking. Just prior to my walk I called my husband, in the middle of his job and just let it all out. Complete with sobbing. All of the things that were binding me up inside. I’ve felt like absolute shit for the past few weeks and today it hit me. I’ve set myself up with so much pressure on every task (large or small) in my life that I actually have set myself up for failure on all that I touch. 
Years ago I named my blog Jenny’s Life Story mainly because it sounded like a cute name. Well. I just realized…I want to be Jenny. That’s right, sounds crazy right? Nope, I want to be Jenny. Jenny in my mind is the girl I was many many years ago without high expectations of myself and of others. I loved myself. I cared for others and those that are close and my family still remember calling me that ( I begged them to stop because I suddenly hated it). 
I want to love myself radically. I want to appreciate and love my husband and kids with no limits. There is a difference between setting a standard for yourself and setting high expectations. Learning to live that way is a whole different story. 
For me, I know I have a few things to make peace with in my life. Most importantly it’s the constant fear I instil in myself of letting others down. These people, in most cases have no expectation from me, other than the one I created myself. 
According to mysticmamma.com, November is the month of pressure – at this moment, only 5 days in, it couldn’t feel more true.
“This month we enter the labor that will birth our own transformation and change. And just as in actual childbirth, once the process begins, there is no going back.
The pressure we feel is that of being in a container that has grown too small. It is time to face the unknown, our own fears and resistance, and move ourselves to the next level.”
Within these next few days I plan to lay the groundwork for what’s needed to make peace in my head and heart. This ground work will bring me closer to the person I want to be. 
XOXO Jenn (Jenny)❤️

What Inspires You?

There are a few things that inspire me ~
1. My children are first on the list.  I base the decisions I make, actions I take and words that I speak based on the fact that I want my children to be proud that I am their mother. Even when it comes to diet and exercise I want to lead by example.  I try not to hang my hat on the “do what I say not what I do” theory of parenting (always harder to do than say!). I want my children to see me eating right and being active.  
2. Other peoples success. No matter the size of the success, seeing someone else do something they didn’t think they could or try something they never thought they would-it makes me feel good. Seeing my friends post their workouts on Facebook motivates me to go take a walk or even take the stairs in place of the elevator. It pushes me to do things out of my comfort level and to put a little extra effort in when I think I’m all out. 
3. Sharing. That’s why I began sharing my daily food diary and now my weekly weigh-ins. By sharing them with essentially anyone who wants to look-I’m putting myself out there.  We all know that’s a double edge sword, because you are bound to get some less than desirable feedback from time to time. But without hearing comments and critism, I’ll never push myself harder the next time. It puts me in competition with myself. 
What inspires you?

Fresh Start…

                              
Today is my FRESH START FRIDAY. 
I’m hitting the reset button and starting from the ground floor. No excuses. I’m making time for me and taking charge of my health and nutrition. Here’s my 30 day short term goal:
1. Track my food. Everyday. No skipping, no lying on portion sizes. Write it down. 
2. Move. Even if it means taking a walk around the block before going into work in the morning and before heading home. Those are times I’m kid free!! 10 minutes in the morning and 10 minutes are a good start. 
3. Drink more water. 
Sounds fairly reasonable, but it’s time to make time for me.  I’ll be posting my food diary on Instagram #lilyboxing, if you want to check in on me. I’ll cross post the really good ones onto the Facebook page. 
I want to get back to where I feel good enough to start running again and boxing. I love both of those things. I felt amazing. I want to feel that way again. 
Who’s with me on making a Fresh Start today?