Yep. I’m riding that struggle bus to the bitter end. I’m at such a divide when it comes to this. On one hand I love ALL the food. All of it. But I’m not happy with how I look or feel. I’d love to find a good balance between these two worlds. But I haven’t found a way to do it. I eat really good but then I crave the junk. I can’t seem to wait it out or get past it.
I haven’t given up. But some days it feels that way. I want to eat healthier, feel better and look better. But I’m also not looking for an easy fix with a huge price tag on it. I’ve done that too and then boomeranged right back to where I am today.
I guess I just need to vent this all out and now I will reset and refresh again tomorrow morning. Beginning with a workout first thing in the morning. No more sleeping in this summer. That’s been part of my problem when it comes to how I’ve been feeling. Lazy start to the day, leads to bad food choices, no workouts and a depressed feeling throughout the day. Then it just repeats day after day. Nothing changes. That’s how it’s been for this last month since the kids got out of school.
As I’m sloooowly writing this post I’m prepping myself for the week. I setup my workout space again downstairs & committed to a contingent workout plan to bridge me to the next one I scheduled in my planner. I mapped out my week on paper for food/snacks. In 20 days I’m on vacation and I’d like to get back on track before that comes along.
I’ll check in each day after my workout for accountability and same for my food. Thanks for supporting me on my journey. I’ve got this because I have a plan!